MY MIND

I HAVE A VERY ACTIVE MIND, SO I HAVE BEEN TOLD, DESCRIBED EVEN AS OVER-ACTIVE. I ASKED TO BE TESTED FOR ADHD BUT TOLD I WAS NOT. IT 
HAS BEEN HARD TO COPE SOMETIMES, ALWAYS THINKING BRAIN NEVER SWITCHING OFF, IT ACTUALLY ACHES SOMETIMES IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN BUT 
I NOTICED IN MY DAY OF EXPERIMENTATION IN ILLICIT DRUGS THAT AMPHETIMINES ACTUALLY SLOWED ME DOWN AND MY THOUGHTS WOULD BE IN SOME FORM OF ORDER INSTEAD OF FLITTING ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT THEY STILL ASSURE ME THAT I AM NOT ADHD OR THOUGH PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME WOULD BEG TO DIFFER. 

WHEN MY MIND IS RUNNING TO FAST IT ALSO SENDS ME INTO A STATE OF ANXIETY SOMETHING I HAVE ALSO LIVED WITH MOST OF MY LIFE, EVEN BEFORE IT WAS EVEN RECOGNISED AS A DISORDER. I CALL IT WALKING ON EGG SHELLS. AND I REALLY CANNOT THINK PROPERLY WHEN IN THIS STATE.

I WAS ALSO AN INSOMNIAC IN MY YOUNGER DAYS SO SPENT SO MUCH TIME AVOIDING MY STEP FATHER AND SITUATIONS THAT I LIVED IN MY HEAD. I CERTAINLY HAD PLENTY OF TIME TO LEARN ABOUT ME AND LIFE AND HOW TO DEAL WITH SITUATIONS MOST PEOPLE BOOHOO ABOUT AND USE AS EXCUSES THESE DAYS FOR JUST ABOUT ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING. 

I LOVE MY MIND AND I DO BELIEVE IT TO BE ALL POWERFUL AND THIS I KNOW BECAUSE I HAVE USED MY MIND AND LIVED IN IT FOR ALL OF MY BORN DAYS