FOOD FOR THOUGHT (a little about a lot)

I HAVE A VERY ACTIVE MIND, SO I HAVE BEEN TOLD, DESCRIBED EVEN AS OVER-ACTIVE. I ASKED TO BE TESTED FOR ADHD BUT TOLD I WAS NOT. IT  HAS BEEN HARD TO COPE SOMETIMES, ALWAYS THINKING BRAIN NEVER SWITCHING OFF, IT ACTUALLY ACHES SOMETIMES IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN BUT  I NOTICED IN MY DAY OF EXPERIMENTATION IN ILLICIT DRUGS THAT AMPHETIMINES ACTUALLY SLOWED ME DOWN AND MY THOUGHTS WOULD BE IN SOME FORM OF ORDER INSTEAD OF FLITTING ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT THEY STILL ASSURE ME THAT I AM NOT ADHD OR THOUGH PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME WOULD BEG TO DIFFER.  WHEN MY MIND IS RUNNING TO FAST IT ALSO SENDS ME INTO A STATE OF ANXIETY SOMETHING I HAVE ALSO LIVED WITH MOST OF MY LIFE, EVEN BEFORE IT WAS EVEN RECOGNISED AS A DISORDER. I CALL IT WALKING ON EGG SHELLS. AND I REALLY CANNOT THINK PROPERLY WHEN IN THIS STATE. I WAS ALSO AN INSOMNIAC IN MY YOUNGER DAYS SO SPENT SO MUCH TIME AVOIDING MY STEP FATHER AND SITUATIONS THAT I LIVED IN MY HEAD. I CERTAINLY HAD PLENTY OF TIME TO LEARN ABOU...

OH GOD-  I MISS MY MIND JUST A LINE TO SAY I'M LIVING  AND I'M NOT AMONG THE DEAD THOUGH I'M GETTING MORE FORGETFUL AND MESSED UP IN MY HEAD I'VE GOT USED TO MY ARTHRITIS TO MY DENTURES I'M RESIGNED I CAN MANAGE MY BI-FOCALS BUT OH GOD! I MISS MY MIND SOMETIMES I CAN'T REMEMBER WHEN I'M STANDING BY THE STAIR IF I SHOULD GO UP FOR SOMETHING OR IF I'VE JUST COME DOWN FROM THERE AND BEFORE THE FRIDGE SO OFTEN MY MIND IS FILLED WITH DOUBT  NOW DID I PUT SOMETHING AWAY OR COME TO TAKE IT OUT AND SOMETIMES WHEN IT'S NIGHT TIME WITH MY HAIR NET ON MY HEAD I DON'T KNOW IF I'M RETIRING OR JUST GETTING OUT OF BED IF IT'S NOT MY TIME TO WRITE DEAR I HOPE YOU WON'T GET SORE I MAY THINK THAT I HAVE WRITTEN AND DON'T WANT TO BE A BORE SO REMEMBER I DO LOVE YOU AND WISH THAT YOU LIVED NEAR BUT NOW IT'S TIME T...

OSHA, (to understand the mind) He is saying, don't think, just swallow it whole, thinking about this great matter is bound to crack your teeth. Your mind is not capable, it is not mean't to think about the absolute all the philosophers are wrong in the sense, that they are trying through mind  to figure out something about the fundamental. THE ABSOLUTE-THE ULTIMATE They don't understand that mind is an arbitrary functioning of the body it has come to this stage because you have to deal with reality. It is simply a mirror, It cannot do. The body has to create an arbitrary mind to function in this world. It's function is not to think about the absolute. How can it think about the absolute? that it has not known, at the most it can become a parrot, it can repeat scriptures, but these scriptures will not be it's own realization and unless something is your own realization it is just an  UNNECESSARY BURDEN!

THE POWERFUL MIND,  THERE IS A LAW OF MIND. WHEN WE THINK A THOUGHT OR WE SPEAK A WORD OR SENTENCE, IT SOMEHOW GOES OUT FROM US INTO A LAW OF MIND AND COMES  BACK TO US AS AN EXPERIENCE.. THE CORRELATION OF THE MENTAL AND THE  PHYSICAL. OUR THOUGHTS SPEED THROUGH OUR MINDS VERY QUICKLY SO IT IS DIFFICULT TO  SHAPE THEM AT FIRST. OUR MOUTHS ON THE OTHER HAND ARE SLOWER SO IF WE  CAN START EDITING OUR SPEECH BY LISTENING TO WHAT WE SAY, THEN WE BEGIN TO SHAPE OUR THOUGHTS. THERE IS TREMENDOUS POWER IN OUR SPOKEN WORD, AND MANY ARE NOT  AWARE JUST HOW IMPORTANT THEY ARE. THE THOUGHTS WE THINK ACCUMULATE AND WHEN WE ARE REPROGRAMMING  OUR MINDS, IT IS NORMAL AND NATURAL THAT WE GO A LITTLE FORWARD AND A LITTLE BACK AND A LITTLE FORWARD AGAIN. IT IS PART OF THE PRACTICING OUT OF ALL OUR MISTAKES WE MUST LEARN HOW TO FLOW WITH THE SYSTEM TO FLOW WITH THE SYSTEM WE MUST BECOME AWARE THAT OUR SUBC...